The Last Time She Saw Him

It had been raining for more than a week, so much downpours it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said that she will be coming up. It was the third time she came to see him on that week. He carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off there. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak, fragile in the harsh rain and her clothes were not enough to keep her warm.

He walked up to her and said, "You should not come see me anymore," and stuff like how they should not be together.
She said, "I miss you."
He told her coldly, "Let's go, I'll take you home."
She did not open up her umbrella; He knew she wanted to share his.
He said, "Open up your umbrella, and let’s go.”Unwillingly, she opened up her umbrella and walked with him to the car. She said she haven’t eaten her lunch or dinner and asked if they could stop at some place to eat. Right away he answered with a stoned heart, "No!.Her heart sinks when he refused to have a snack with her .With disappointment, she asked him to take her to the train station; she said she would take a train back home. She felt down in the dumps at that moment.

Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, who are not caring about anyone who passes by. They waited and waited, she looked at him innocently. Being together for so long, of course he knew what she meant. He understands her feelings when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and he treats her coldly. With her soft eyes staring at him, He felt guilty and wanted to let her stay for the night. But the reality struck again, He said to her coldly, "Let's go and search for another train in a different train station."

They were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of them, and they got along well. They would always do things together. They were more like a family, but he did not know that he would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. It was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, they developed deep feelings for each other as love is blind. After she was graduated, she went back home, and he stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year he was only able to take the train down to meet her on holidays, but not on a long period. That was how they kept their treasured relationship.

They were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of him and he was right behind of her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Most of the time she kept on thinking, drifting off the road, she was almost hit by the cars passing by. He wanted to take her in his arms, but with the love that he had for her and the constant pain in his stomach, he did nothing. On the way, they passed by the park where they use to always go. She begged and said, "Let’s go into the park just for a little while, please, I promise I'll go home right after this."

Her begging made his cold heart softened, but he still put up an annoyed face and walked into the park. He was just sitting on a benches looking around as he wanted to leave the place . She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. He knew she was looking for what they wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half years ago. If he remembers it right, it said, "Chris and Magdalene was here, Chris had tea and Magdalene was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Magdalene would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for a while, and then she came back slowly with tears rolling on her cheek.

She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
He felt so sour inside; there was a stream of pain, flowing into his heart, the kind of pain that he have never felt before. But all he could do was pretended he did not care, and said, "Can we go now?"
He opened up his big black umbrella, she was just standing there, did not want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl aren't you? I know I frustrated you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?”He did not say a word, just looked down and shook his head. After that they just kept on walking towards the train station, never say a word to each other.

Four years ago, the doctor said that he had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, he started living his normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. He did not think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. After a month, his stomach was hurting for two weeks non-stop, and the nightmare awakened him again. First he thought the pain would go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that he could not take it anymore. He went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that he did not want to believe. It was just like out of frying pan, into the fire. He was at the most glittering part of his life.

He wanted himself and the people around him to go through the least pain as possible, so he decided to commit suicide. But he could not let people find out about his intentions, especially Magdalene, the person he love the most in this whole world, who still does not know about the truth. Magdalene was still young; she should not go through this. So he made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out the love that they build for three years. He did not have much time, because the symptoms of cancer would soon start to rise and she would find out eventually. But now he is close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over but all things grow with time except grief.

Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end that was what he had in mind. The train had stopped running,so he called a taxi for her. They were just standing there, waiting, losing their last moments in silence. He saw the taxi from far away, He held his tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself.”She did not talk, just nodded lightly, and then she opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, they became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. He opened the door for her and she got in, then he closes the gate that would separate him from her forever.

He stood by the car, staring in the dark window at the first love in his life also the last one walking out of his life. The car started driving into the street. Finally he could not hold his sorrow and the twist in his heart any longer,waving his arms rapidly chasing after the taxi as had a huge lump in his throat.He wanted to tell her that he still loves her, he wanted to tell her to stay, he wanted to tell her so much but the taxi had already turned in the corner.Warm tears kept falling down on his cheek blended with the cold rain drops.He was cold,not because of the rain.He was cold inside.She left and he never gets anymore of her phone calls even until today.He knows she did not see his tears because they were washed away by the rain. He left with no regrets.And that was the last time she saw him.